Dreaming

For several weeks now I have had these dreams.  Each one is slightly different.  I try to pay attention to my dreams, but sometimes they are forgotten by the time I have my first cup of coffee.  Most people think dreams don't mean anything, but for me, my Mom and my sister, our dreams mean something...sometimes, rarely they are actual snippets of the future.  It has been a couple of years since I have had one of these snippets and right now I am wishing this was a snippet...

The dreams I have been having are about Ashley.

One of the dreams she calls me, there is a dream where it is a first conversation and other dreams where we are talking like we have a close relationship.  The conversations are positive, there is a lot of laughter.

Another dream we meet for the first time.  I can't remember where we are at or when it is...just someplace in the present.  We hug, we laugh, we act like we were never separated.

I have also dreamed that she was with me on Christmas Eve, with the rest of my family.  We interact like she has always been with us.  She would be with me on Christmas morning...it would be my husband, kept daughter, Ashley and I.  The pure joy could be felt.

There are so many variations, but they all represent the same thing.  We are together, we are happy and there is love.

I have been so busy with other things lately that Ashley has not consumed my every waking moment.  I wish I knew if this was wishful dreaming or if she was thinking of me or if she will finally reach out soon.

Silly dreams...silly, wishful dreams...