Beautiful

Losing a child to a closed adoption is certainly no picnic.  There are some days that are just fine, then there are other days when it is painful.  Sometimes, the words used to coerce me come flashing back, leaving me feeling lost and insecure.  There is an emptiness left inside of me, a void that will never be filled, nothing can take that emptiness away.  A piece of me was taken away, leaving my puzzle undone.

23 years later I am able to finally say...actually quote Christina Aguilar's song..."We are beautiful no matter what they say.  Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no We are beautiful in every single way.  Yes, words can't bring us down"

Beautiful

Christina Aguilera

Spoken:
Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, I saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay


And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today