Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Pacing the floors

It has been two weeks since I sent the message to Ashley on facebook.  No response.  This is how I'm feeling about it today...

I am trying very hard to be patient and stay positive.  I don't obsessively check my messages and when I see a message alert I don't get my hopes up.  I keep telling myself it is what it is.

But this is killing me!!  Has she seen the message?  Is she ignoring me?  Is she thinking about what to write?  By now I'm guessing if it were negative she would have already said it, hell, she could have responded with a "I'm not the one you are looking for".  

I'm climbing the walls over here.  

Now it looks like she is planning on moving to California.  Could this be the delay in responding?  I'm okay if it is...just tell me!!

I just wish someone would rip this band-aid off.  Please, just pull the skin tight, grab that band-aid and rip it off...quickly!!  Just make sure you pull parallel with the skin and against the hair growth so hairs are pulled from the root and not broken off.  

Hmmm....odd comparison, but I think I can go with it...instead of band-aid it's a wax strip.




7 comments:

Laurie said...

I totally get where your'e coming from. Sent my son a letter in Jan. never heard back. Then sent a fb Happy Birthday note in May, never heard back. I wish he would just tell me what is happening. Waiting is awful. Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

I hope you hear something soon - as somebody also still waiting for my son to take the next step, I understand all too well the desire to know one way or the other what our children are thinking or wanting. Sending you good thoughts.

Sara

Anonymous said...

It's been over 5 months since I contacted my son on Facebook. So far I've sent him 3 messages and have received nothing back. I'm hoping for some kind of communication, even if it's "I'm not interested". The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Well, I'm either insane or just a mother who desperately wants to at least know that her son is OK & happy. I know that waiting is agony but when contact is made, it's going to be worth the wait. Hang in there. I'm praying for a swift resoltion for you. I enjoy reading your blog because you can put into words what I can't. All the best - hang in there.

birthmothertalks said...

Very sorry that you haven't heard anything yet.

Susie said...

Sending out more positive vibes for you! I had so hoped you would not have to wait long to hear from your daughter. The waiting has got to be pure torture!!

In Blind Faith said...

Thank you for all of the positive thoughts!! This waiting is torture!! I feel like I'm just treading water...not knowing if I should go back to the shore or keep swimming!!

Demeter said...

I wrote to my daughter every 3-4 weeks for 9 months before she answered me. In the beginning I thought I'd go completely insane. (I do not suggest you do this...I'd had some very brief contact before this & kept it short and light) I finally settled into the positive affirmations, "She will respond. She will want to know me. We will have a wonderful lifelong relationship..." etc. I refused to believe anything else. I refused the "it is what it is"...hell no, what it is is a mother and child who should have always been together, what it is is unnatural they were not together, what it is is unacceptable. What it TRULY IS is what will be. That is mother and child reuniting, as it should be. Deep breaths and stay positive. It's a very bumpy road with a lot of emotions on both sides. Time. Patience. Those are the two most important things here...the two hardest yes, but very important.